Friday, September 29, 2006 @ HOME WITH THE DAMDILS
i took leave today. hubby's overseas again and my mum had to attend a funeral. so it's just me and the damdils at home. kelam-kabut jugak seh! tapi best pon ada, cos tak payah nak mengadap orang-orang mengarot kat opis! hehe... eh sesungguhnya aku berpuasa...
to be honest, i was quite hesitant to fast at first cos i was so scared my milk supply would dip permanently. cos it had dipped before when i had the flu, and never did return back to its original state, and that worried me to no end. till today, i'm still finding ways and means to increase my supply again - tried fenugreek etc. - but i've yet to find a solution that works. next thing on the menu: salmon omega 3 capsules!
thanks to my mum's advice, i tried fasting anyway and alhamdulillah, my milk is not affected much. there *is* a dip, but nothing that warrants a panic attack. kan Tuhan dah tunjukkan. padan muka ko. nak skip posa konon. mudah-mudahan after ramadan, my milk will flourish again. in the meantime, togok air by the gallons come sahur.
just now the damdils were making so much ruckus among themselves, potpetpotpet non-stop. but once i hovered above them with the camera, members terus bisu. LOL! camera shy is itttt.....
tengok dorang hilang penat puasa. :)
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Monday, September 25, 2006 TWINS 101
my sis sent me a doctored photo of my lil baldies.
haha! macam yunnam punya mascot!
anyway, nowadays, these two insist on having autonomy on their bottle. nak pegang botol sendiri konon!
nilah jadinya kalau aksen pandai sangat :p
adam has also turned over by himself. no wonder he's been extra active lately (and not gaining much weight as a result!). my mum said, "nak ringankan badan." yeahhh, si kenit dah tiarap! adil will follow suit soon i think, at least i hope so. his pantat sebakol lah. he just loves his milk too much.
i've been receiving emails from curious parties asking me how i cope with the twins on my own. well, it ain't easy i tell you. but as the cliche goes, if there's a will, there's definitely a friggin' way.
(1) do you have a maid/ why didn't you get a maid?
hah soalan cepu emas! no, i don't have a maid nor do i intend to get one. it's simply a matter of lifestyle choice. like choosing not to smoke. i choose not to have a maid. fortunately for me, both my mother and mil are still around so they can help. i'm very possessive lah. i cannot stand the thought of a stranger handling my babies. can't help it lor, i'm like that. so getting a maid is absolutely the last, LAST resort for me. i'll use up my other options while i still have them (let's see how long i can last, haha!). one thing i don't like is when people/relatives *demand* to know WHY i did not straightaway get a maid in the first place. huh? is that what's expected of me? have kids so i MUST get a maid? like that's a maternal SOP? just because other people do it, i have to conform? apa ni?? jaga sendiri kan lagi baik. nenek jaga pon lagi baik. maid tu last resort. LAST sekali. bukan first resort, hear? eh but i don't go around judging people with maids. masing-masinglah. lain orang, lain seluar dalam. the most important thing is to do what's best for you, kan? must see the situation lah. i'll take care of the damdils on my own for as long as i can manage.
(2) how do you manage your workday week with the babies?
ouh, i have a timetable! mon, wed, fri -> my mum's. tues, thurs -> my mil (but we send her and the babies to mil's sister's place. cos mil can't cope alone.) looks very messy but it's doable. plus it makes both grandmas very happy cos they get to see the boys every other day. so kira macam fairlah gitu. we fetch them home after work every day. we only leave them overnight at my mum's if there is a very important meeting/event in the morning that we cannot afford to be late for. previously, my mum strongly suggested for us to bring the boys home only on fridays so we can get ample rest, but not wanting to be weekend parents, we had to decline. cannot ah. rindu! tak cukup tido pon takpelah...
*when hubby travels, i sleep over at my mum's. life is nomadic like that.
(3) what about night feeds?
well, hubby and i take turns. usually we alternate babies and stick with that particular baby for the night. if i happen to get the twin who chooses to be fussy that night, i'd just have to grin and bear it! macam russian roulette, aye? and we no longer get to sleep on our nice comfy bed. these days, kita empat beranak camp in the living room. the damdils don't like their cots, for some strange reason. so it's golek-golek on the tilam for now.
(4) weekends?
the weekend is our time to enjoy with the twins! just us and the damdils. <3 catching up on precious time, be it quality or quantity ~ that's the bane of us working parents.
full-fledged SAHMhood. that's something i've been coveting for the longest time.
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006 DAH HALAL PON...
as promised, esah's wedding dinner pictures!
my double trouble all ready to go to see pakpakbingbing at their aunty esah's!
this is what happen when one is still too fat to fit into one's old clothes. you can't stick to the given theme. i was the only brown cow!
eh wait seminit! there was actually another brown cow around ~ kak nina jamz @ fashionista!
pengantin lama with pengantin baru. sorry photographer tangan tak maintain. esah, you look damn gebu. fadz, you lucky, lucky man. you two is like the pisang, the very big pisang (the one on esah's hen nite cake) dibelah dobelas!
mudah-mudahan berjangkit hendaknya. hehe. eh i carried twins on *my* wedding and unexpectedly got myself a pair! so esah, kalau gua boleh, lu pon boleh!
a nice one with the couple
with our blogger kakis
an attempt to take a picture of the 4 brudders. betul punya tak reti diam...
can you guess which baby uncle izad is carrying? :)
we unfortunately had to miss the sanding day. so sad. and so the very kempunan. the pengantins were so beautiful tau! but i know i'll get to see more pictures when the newlyweds return from their hornymoon in hawaii... hopefully with a baby in the belly too! or two! :D
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Thursday, September 14, 2006 DOUBLE TROUBLE
cute aye? they're looking more and more alike by the day. if adil grows more hair and adam fattens up a bit more, even *i* will have difficulty telling them apart.
akan datang: aunty esah's wedding picts!
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Thursday, September 07, 2006 I CAN'T GET NO... SATISFACTION
i need to rant.
my freaking workplace is not supportive of my BFing. such an ignorant, unenlightened bunch of neanderthals.
this is what happens when you work with people who:
1) don't believe in getting married and/or having children (kes jaga anjing dah cukup) 2) have grown up kids (but have never attempted BFing before) 3) takde harapan nak kahwin (atas sebab-sebab yang malas saya nak explain)
what makes it worse is when you happen to be the only one in the office to break the 10-year-no-preggers spell.
but first of all, a disclaimer: this is *not* a militant BF message. cos this BFing mummy happens to supplement too.
however i do think that BM is the best source of nutrition for my boys, and *will* give them as much as this tikooos body can offer. that includes pumping 3 times at work... which unfortunately has become an issue with those idiots in the office. so much for working in a medical environment!
when i returned to work after my maternity leave, i had to scout around for an available room to do the deed, and found the (cold) server room to be the most suitable. (not the conference room, and definitely not the training room! toilets? don't be disgusting can? you want me to pump amidst floating goreng pisangs is it??) anyway the server room is used only occasionally, so all the more suitable lor.
when i told my office manager (who falls under category 3 - see above) about my intentions to pump in the server room, she went, " ahhhhhh??? must pump ah????" and proceeded to give me that i'd-prefer-if-you-don't-do-that look. i nearly gave her the wtf-just-because-your-tetek-will-never-have-susu look, but decided against that and simply responded with a curt, "yes, cos i'm still breastfeeding (you twit)." after which she menyenyeh-ed away about how so-and-so (kononnya some big f*cks) will want to use the room to check their emails so i must "be careful". then she menyenyeh-ed some more (at which point, i'd chosen to space out at will). whatever it is, the point she was trying to make is: YOU ARE CREATING AN INCONVENIENCE FOR THE REST.
what inconvenience, i ask you? i've already covered the glass walls and door with mahjong paper so nobody will accidentally witness thelma and louise being milked. and the room is soundproof enough, so no noisy disturbances there. i've also created a very nice sign saying, "Kindly do not enter. Cowmilking in progress.", complete with a very nice pink polka-dotted cow. plus i use the room only for 15 mins at a time, not 24 hours! and the big f*ucks she was talking about? they come only one or twice a week, and there are many other available PCs in the office they can use!! eleh setakat nak check email aje. PUI!
being no pushover, i proceeded to mass email the office to inform the rest about my pumping schedule. and if they need to use the room urgently, just knock and i'll wrap up my pumping immediately. reasonable kan? i'm not about to let misinformed bigots deprive me of my BFing experience just because they think i'm skiving. PUI PUI!
tapi citer blom abis eh. recently a colleague told me some people have been gossiping about my pumping and how they think i'm hogging the room lah, blablabla... kan aku dah cakap, KETOK?! apasallah bahalol sangat. dorang yang tak nak ketok, abis nak mengumpat pasal kita pulak? i was so pissed sia. then i was told to EMAIL the entire office every time i want to pump, so that they can keep track of me. so bloody calculative kan? i complain to m.c.y.s can??
to make the story short, i'm now looking for another job.
maybe, just maaaayyyybeeeee... i'll go back to teaching. :)
we see how things go.
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PERMAI[SURI] OF THEIR HEARTS
see lah. what a gorgeous baby.
what a perfect combination of the mom and dad, doncha think?
she makes me wanna start production for number 3. for that little girl i've always wanted. or two.
LOL!!! gila nak mampos aku ni.
dua hero kat rumah tu kencing masih blom straight hokay!
