it's 11 pm (way past their 9 o'clock bedtime), the lights are out, but my bananas in pyjamas are still AWAKE. AND HAPPY. si bibik dilsbedils pulak melayan! oi, bila nak game ni?!
on another note, happy 3rd anniversary, seventysevenclan!
3 weddings and 4 babies later, we're still going on strong. from cyberspace to a real friendship, it's only a matter of time before we berbesan with one another! like this must produce girls for a change hor? (esah, remember, NOT on ovulation day! :p)
some people take us too seriously. lighten up daa dey. kita harmlesslah. no intentions to take over the (cyber)world or anything. we're just shiny, happy people holding hands. shiny err... from overactive sebaceous glands (yes, at this age).
ok girls, next year, the big 3-0. are you ready? i'm not.
masih nak feeling 18, can?
:: rouge @ 11:30 pm ::
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Saturday, December 23, 2006 TRIPLE As
so the two (desperate) housewives met up over pizza and some mindless shopping - for our little bubs, what else. it was high time i met lil adriana in person too, for the last time i saw her mummy elektrik was when she visited the damdils while i was still in confinement... when lil A was still snug in the womb!
with our triple As
it was my first time ever venturing out on my own without the hubster or my mum. terkial-kial jugak seh. but dilsbedils proved to be a very reliable bibik, and so the day went by with minimal glitches. the real struggle only came when it was time to lug 2 prams into a cab or out of one. with no extra hands, 2 *very* wriggly and heavy babies, and one heck of a lazy apek driver (kenapa dorang malas pon tak tau, buta agaknya), boarding or alighting from a cab can be a very painful process. sigh. but i came out of it unscathed! heh, this mummy dah terrar sikit. boleh buat lagi ah, asalkan ada willing assistant. :D
hot(sling) adriana flanked by cheeky adil and sleepy adam. mummy dia dah 'chope'kan adam untuk dia daaa.
mummy elektrik with a very vocal adriana :)
now all the two sahms need to do is wait for that letter. one mummy wants to re-mould the mouldy nation, while the other can't wait to fly the blue skies again.
lucky thang, elektrik you. *this* mummy can forget about fitting into a tight kebaya anytime soon. perut dahlah macam teletubbies. triple sigh.
:: rouge @ 1:36 am ::
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006 ROUGEY BOYS
if you look at this picture, you can't really tell my boys' personalities apart.
but this one, maybe you'll have a hint.
adam the emotional, pensive, snag material. adil the downright JOKER. selamba selalu.
lately, they've learnt how to terrorise each other. stress mummy dia.
but at the end of the day, one never forgets to sayang-sayang one's best fwen.
i think they miss their ayah. since the ayah left, they haven't been able to sleep peacefully through the night. cranky cranky cranky. takde ayah nak dodoikan back to lala land ape. show them the ayah's pict on the pc, and they'll terkinja-kinja macam kera kena *sambal* belacan.
haiya, jangan cakap dorang, mummy dia LAGI miss. :/
:: rouge @ 2:52 pm ::
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Saturday, December 16, 2006 THE WORK PUMPS ARE CALLING
the damdils turned 7 months yesterday. the same day the hubster left for his offshore trip (hopefully his last). he's making that much-needed a career change - much needed by me actually - so that he can stay put in this country for good. so that he'll be around ALWAYS. so that i won't be left behind to fend for the little babies on my own like a featherless and headless chicken. so that i have someone to sleep with EVERY night. but his new job only starts in march next year, meaning i would have to tolerate him being away for the time being. a feeling which i still can't get used to. darn.
as for me, i've gone for that interview. i have absolutely no idea how i fared or whether i want the job even. haha. yeah i know, very bodoh. i still have a week to muddle over my decision whether to take up the job offer if accepted. it can mean hellhole days all over again. deja vu. deja vu rabak punya. the essence of the job, i love. but the politics, the admin crap, the kurang ajar nak mamposness, i loathe. back then, i spiralled into depression and got more burnt out than my dad's blackened toast on a sunday morning. i even swore never to come back again. but at the same time i know it's more realistic to never say never. well, that day has come. but how to decide with this kind of dilemma?? i mean, i've been there, know what it's all about, the grit and shit. but at the same it's also a wonderful thing to do, to touch lives, where every day is never the same (not like the humdrum of a deskjob, which i've done too). what if i can't cope? cos the workload was already super heavy then... and i was SINGLE! now aku dah ada dua budak nak kena jaga. macam mana nak cope?! aku ni takde maid tau. and what if i get burnt out again?
how come i'm not serik oneeeee???
one week balls. that's all i have to decide on my fate. my 2 months of SAHMing have been a blessing, i've never felt closer to my babies, but i *have* to work to provide better things for my family. maybe when the boys are bigger and more independent (so that mummy here won't lose her head), and when the hubster earns truckloads of moolah (haha), only then can i resume the journey of being a sahm. it *is* the most difficult job on earth you know.
till then, kena kerjalah beb.
to the husband in perth, wa rindu sama lu. i think by the time you balik, dua budak kecik ni dah jalan agaknya. :p
